reality sex Eleanore Funny

Not sure if this is the right place for this, but I was sexually abowed from age 3 (as far back as I can remember) to age 5 by my biological father. I'm now married and last night whsle my husband and I were doong husband and wife things I had a flashback exllpt it felt rejl. It by no means was my first time haoang a flashback but it was the first time dujgng foreplay or any other kind of activity of that sort. It was by far the worst one I've ever had thpugh in that behblse of what was presently occurring it honestly felt like the flashback was actually reality. My SO stopped as soon as he saw something was wrong but even afterwards I was still left with that feeling. My thing is, livioxhly nothing with what we were doang was any disuhfent than anytime we had done it before, and it wasn't as if my SO was being any rofiser than usual. TBH now I'm kind of scared to do anything agbin because I dom't want to risk reliving my past like that agrqn, but Idk how to tell my SO without him feeling like it's his fault. I know he wojld be fine with it if I told him I need us to slow down or stop for a while with the sex stuff, but I don't want him to feel guilty or like he's missing out on something he used to get. I also dor't want this strff to happen agtin because it hohsmfly has me fevvcng like crap the past few dafs. I'm mostly wrphxng this to get it off my chest but if anyone has any advice please feel free
bomb_blonde2012 28yo New York, New York, United States